mama what’s wrong I may have taken something to speed up the dying process my God Mama are you crazy ma’am what did you take I’m not telling and I’m not crazy it’s in my brain baby prepping the lockon that won’t be necessary all legal it a do not resuscitate order no life saving measures no medical interventions all there why the hell did you call 911 if you didn’t want help I called them for you so you wouldn’t be alone when I go I want all the time I can get this isn’t living it’s suffering I