I want people to know like you know your life is short and to be good to one [Music] another show up every day for the ones you love and don’t take those small moments for [Music] granted we thought it was a stomach butt he was throwing up he had stomach cramps and a fever and I would go in and check on him and take care of him bring him fluids he took his left arm and he lifted his right arm and he dropped it and it was completely limp so I said okay we have to go to the hospital we took him to the hospital he needed emergency surgery because he had a infection in his intestines [Music] I was told at the hospital even if we took him a few days before it would have been the same outcome because the infection was already in his [Music] system and it’s that feeling of waiting for him to come home it’s you know his shoes are still by the front door his toothbrush is still here his clothes hanging in the lawn laundry room you know you wake up every morning with a pit in your stomach and you go to bed every night with the light on and maybe this was all a bad [Music] dream each day I wake up and I get out of bed for my son for our son and I try to give him the best life possible because I know that’s what my husband would want you know if you can find a love and have a family that’s you know the best thing in the world [Music]