you know there was a a film that I cared deeply about that um when I saw how it turned out really broke my heart I’m not going to get into names and all of that but um it it it was a part that I cared deeply about that I prepared for for a long time and and then when I saw what happened it was just absolutely devastating and I think that was uh one big big moment where I felt you know I don’t think I can I don’t think my heart can take this anymore