this is the most vulnerable piece of art that I’ve put out into the world and say some of the things that I’ve only ever said to my therapist and really that’s a scary thing and then when other people like yeah we support that it’s just like cool that’s what I was hoping great yeah no I’m real glad this is happening and then the Panic sets in because you want to live up to expectations but expectations are the easiest way to hurt your own feelings so it’s helped me in this process to let go of that and just get excited by other people’s excitement