it’s been a tough year it’s probably been the best year of my life though at the same time when you get hurt in a significant way it’s a reset on life and everything just stops in your life everybody else’s life yeah keeps going you like I always said you know the game was around long before we started it’s going to be around long after we’re done it doesn’t stop for you the whole world doesn’t wait for you to come back y conquer here no no no everything keeps on going going but your life stops you become sedentary you can’t move you got to be waited on by people and then you know you start working on the mental part the mental part takes forever because you’re still trying to get over the frustration the heartache the Heartbreak the what if the what could have been the excitement feeling like he let people down I think you still deal with that I mean he still wonder can I go out there and do it