but after that I will not see you for an incredibly long time and I will hold you dear in my heart for that whole next of my break and I will fantasize about these shows and any shows that I’ve done over the last three years and I will really really hold them in the bottom of my heart forever it has been amazing I just need a rest and I have spent I have spent the last seven years building a new life for myself and I want to live in our and live my new life that I’ve been building and I will miss you terribly