well I’d seen several of the scenes before it was all stitched together so I had my I got my tears out and then it just depends how tired I am uh cuz like look we’re human and we want to be seen and we want to be heard and I’m I’m seen and heard on such a grand scale never more so than this and then when people sort of at the end of the film clap and look at me I’m like I hav seen but I just don’t want to be like man who cries all the time