haunts me to this day and again very established YouTubers are there so every time I accidentally run into them or something like I did this YouTube thing the other day and I ran to one of the like very established people on the way out I mean I’m talking like tens of millions of subscribers all of them they’re all very nice people by the way but anyway and I was just like this is so embarrassing because I know they’re like that’s the girl who took up all the time in the therapy class terrible terrible all right and then there’s also like the obvious things I can never live down like most of my Tik Tok career as a you know young teenager homeschooled was very obvious looking back at it now too I mean you can probably still tell but the videos I used to make I don’t even look I don’t even look cuz I’m like that’s not even me anymore I’m figuring myself out I was growing up it’s okay if you did some embarrassing videos but literally 90% so bad it’s so bad and at the same time I’m like H I don’t care it got to where I was now I was growing as a person but also at the same time whoa why did you post that um they’re not like bad they’re just like embarrassing like they’re just very like