I’m just you know I’m 46 there was a moment a couple of years ago where I was sort of thinking about like plan B’s like do I go into like a homestead and start like planning a garden and baking goods and and um and just become you know the sexiest soccer mom in my mind um but the truth is I’m an artist through and through and I need to create every day if not I just don’t know what I can do I don’t know why I’m here and that’s how my loved on can get the best of me is when I am allowed to create so I’m just I’m indebted to filmmakers like Jack O diard that after conversations and auditions and promises that I can do something they really decide to bet on me and it works